My Morning Gripe (8/22)

Space....

No not that space...

Space just in regard to everyday life... let me explain... I'm a big guy... north of 6'3, east and west of 300lbs so i take up my fair share of.. well space here on the ground. That being said the world can get a little cramped sometimes... public transportation.. restaurants... movie theaters.... and especially trying to find clothes to cover your ass. so Mass transit... RTA Chicago better know as CTA will make you a little self-conscious when you sit down because the seats on the buses are small... and i understand that they want to maximize the available seating space on the trains and buses but damn those little bucket seats all the way to hell. My real gripe though comes with the current, very devious state of the clothing industry.. not in the aspect of marketing or prices or anything like that (at the moment).. but its the actual clothes themselves really bug me. it is HARD to find consistency in sizing these days... shopping just is not easy regardless to where you look..nothing is as advertised because everyone seems to be using less material but labeling its a bigger size..a 3XL shirt isn't a 3XL anymore its like a 1.75XL. Same goes for pants which is probably the most heart-wrenching process, and chances are you'll never leave the store with the size you THOUGHT you were when you walked in. My personal guess to why this is the case is because very little (if anything) is made and produced here in the states...its all imported from places with skinny people and they have no idea about the concept of extended sizes which is necessary to American fatassery. its... frustrating to say the least.. I've given away a lot of stuff over the years that was picked up as a quick buy only to get home, try it on, and hang my head at another colossal fail that was made in China....

My Morning Gripe (8/18)

My People...

This is something that i think about daily.. and its most keen when i watch the news in the evenings.. the current state of my African American communities. It saddens me to see that the only time we decide to unite, stand up, be vibrant and glorify a reform is in the face of absolute tragedy. It really seems as though there MUST be a community rattling murder for our people to decide to wake up and do---no, scratch that BE better people. Within the last couple weeks I've seen and heard about some of the most heinous crimes to our people committed by OUR PEOPLE, and the community "leaders" decide to show face and use the rinse and repeat tactic of stopping the violence and rectifying the cancers that are destroying our innocent youth---blah blah blah... my issue with this is that the commitment to change is never constant.. there's never the stable feeling that we, as a whole community, are gaining ground and pushing in the right direction. Instead we have these isolated clusters of activism (once or twice a week seems to be the going rate), then we go back the same stagnant behaviour that allows tragedy to strike in the first place. This whole "it doesn't matter until it happens to me" mentality has got to stop, and until it does and this cycle WILL continue. Personally, --and as much as i'd love to be wrong on this--, i really dont think we have the willpower and capacity as a whole to take a stand against the tragidies in our communities. Why do i feel this way?.. well its simple.. unless something happens in our immediate family or vicinity we tend to turn the other cheek and lack that same compassion to undo the plight in the community.. instead we shake our head and go on about our day... thats not to say that im any better... im guilty of it too-- and thats my morning gripe.

My Morning Gripe--- (8/15)

These......

Theyre everywhere... you've seen them on numerous occasions... theyre the eye in the sky... always claiming to 'enhance' security and better 'ensure' loss prevention.. making people taking public transportation feel better 'protected'...at one point i heard these cameras could zoom in close enough to read the time on your watch... now thats some powerful stuff right?...we should be able to shop and travel with no fear right?!...........well.......... i dunno.. im skeptical.. why? well typically (in Chicago) the CTA train stops have a street level, a mezzanine type area where you can purchase fare cards and the actual elevated platform where the train is located. This morning i was on the Cicero-Green stop and noticed the abundance of these things... i almost hit my head on one on my way in everyday...while its nice having them there i really dont feel they detour anything... unless they contain a hibernating ninja or a pokemon within them... realistically im standing about 175ft away from the entrance to the platform... if something happens theres a lot of ground to cover to get to the incident.. youre two floors and about a 50 yard pass from Michael Vick to DeSean Jackson away from any law enforcement or security... not to mention there are a ton of people and two trains going in opposite directions to be used as getaways... now these cameras really just do not help in a dire situation.. realistically.. if they do happen to catch anything... rarely is the footage acted upon even if it is a heinous crime.. well not until much much later.... being watched and not protected especially on Chicagos west and south sides is highly irritating... and THATS my morning gripe.

its SUNDAY!?

every few months i say to myself...."damn i need to get back on this" so i am...again... dont judge me..

so here i am on yet another mild sunday afternoon with in the confines of my warm cozy cubicle annoying the hell out of people because it "Sunday"... and apparently they dont wanna have a less than 3 minute chat about higher education...but whatever. Thats actually one of the things that makes me think... when people say "Do you know its Sunday?!" in their livid, semi-confused tone of voice what DOES that really mean? its always interesting to hear Sunday prayer pushers get their bibles in a bunch..mainly because Sundays either are.. or precede a major socially accepted holiday (Mothers Day, 4th of July, etc.). being brought up in a heavily faith based household i understand that its perceived as a day of rest... to spend time with family and whatnot yes.. im well aware but the ignorance that lies in this statement comes well before the statement is even made...if this is what you believe... why are you picking up to begin with... and this is the thing you decide to affix your lips to say? futhermore when has "Its Sunday" been an excuse for any damn thing in life? aaaaand.. then come the attacks "you must not have a family..", "its pretty pitiful to call people on a sunday", "WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU YOU STUPID BITCH.. (and then hang up)", the majority of people i get this from act like theyve never worked on a sunday... ever ...anyway i digress... im sitting here really.. really drowsy because i took a sleeping indicing allergy pill like an idiot with about half of my work day to go and about an hour of travel time to my home so its gonna be a long evening... later days

Secretly--- yours???

so im tipsy right now and lemme tell you about this wack ass place-- its like someones dorm room on crack--- i dont see how anyone could go here and really have a good time with some lyin ass white ass european bitch side gyrating on a chair... this bitch (excuse me) said she had no family and was like some innocent euro-Russian chick act like she was some kinda orphan and get me for the $220... yea.. like lemme get the bitches with the bullet wounds tryna feed the kids... not some female that told me she was 26 but had been dancing for 13 years.... wait are you 26 or 32?? ..that is about to get G sized implants man.. .. im good on donating to the titty fund..AND there was a cat in the bathroom ...(feline, not dancer) seriously IN REAL LIFE $220 could have got me 200 tacos from Taco HELL...

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DO SOMETHING !!!*@&#

As i continue my job hunt and my frustrating journey towards eventual success (gotta speak it into existence) ive always wondered a few things-- the thing that stands out the most though are the people that have given up on the journey and are just complacent with mediocrity.. i've never understood those individuals that are okay with being sub-par. I mean even those individuals we call gol'diggers DO WORK... its a job to be that damn petty and find your way into someones financial situation, so i'm not talking about them.. i'm talkin' about that person--- you know that one person stayin' in they moms basement or livin' under some female and are just... OKAY with it. how could you not desire to have your own or offer your talents to live to its fullest. Dirty draws and cinnamon toast crunch isn't living... really.. i'm just sayin'. These men baffle me though in my age group and baffle me even more as the age bracket goes up... 40..50... no family.. no career no home WHAT? i just don't get it... and maybe i'm being insincere in my feeling that thats just absurd... or im being insensitive in the notion that there are unforeseen circumstances that strike all our lives... but DO SOMETHING... since when was mediocrity a career path?

20XX

So-- its February of twenty eleven aaaaaand it feels like more of the same.. perhaps its because i started my year off wrong by bringing in the frustrations and fallacies that caused me to struggle in the prior year. OR it could be because im just the same individual that i was before and the rolling of a new digit on the year did nothing. Either way its been a rough start.. and i cant say i see relief in site not in this situation.. but anythings possible right?

A quick thought on adult life...

So its been a nice long minute since I've updated ....its been a long haul this year with a summer that's been both eventful and coupled with some harsh realizations. Starting right at the top....being a consenting adult comes with consenting adult decisions ....and most of them suck. Also you hit that point in life that your parents warned you about.........but you didn't listen. And because you didn't listen...alllllll of those things you thought didn't matter come to fruition....and they compile and suffocate you!... tragic huh...
That's where I am right now and its quite terrible...but times like this are implemented in ones life to show internal strength and in the long run to show that there isn't any mountain too big to overcome... I think the biggest thing I've learned in the current year is that shit is real....it's really real...and the 24 hours we get a day are blessings that need to be used to the fullest....when you let your problems last a day longer they only get a day larger.......maybe I should write that down....okay I'm going back to work...

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web (that I currently know of) other than google reader and 'Snaptu's mobile RSS feeds... So we'll see how this works out