ParkingFAIL!

So.....i went to Target today....and Chicagoans have good reason for NOT fuckin' wit' Cicero beyond the obvious "crowdedness".....i couldn't find a parking space to save my life....and after i did finally park....i witnessed THIS.....i bet you this is the SAME FUCKER that didnt "understand" me when i asked him for some salt...........*ahem.....'scuse me...sorry 'bout that....*

#MusicMonday

With my lack of sleep and mind constantly raging..... insomnia is pretty well documented on my part.....so one of my choices for this weeks #MusicMonday is 4:AM Forever by Lostprophets.....Rock On!

Another of my favorites...an old school song by Tavares - "It Only Takes A Minute" is one of those feel good songs that gives you that strange tingle to believe that love still truly exists....and is out there despite all the lies and deceit we have all faced in our lives...

And Finally....a song thats also pretty feel good....i catch myself listening to it a lot is "One Love" by Trey Songz....Mr. Songz killed it on this one....maybe one day ill be saying some of these lyrics to that "Special Someone"....wherever she is....

SSSSSSSSS......AAahhhhhhh *Sizzle*........Blu Phi

Back in May...i got 'hit' for the first (and probably only) time....i procrastinated for a

long, long time before i gave into actually doing it....

so heres the video from that night after K.A.O.S. in May...then the healing afterwards....

This was after 3-4 Weeks i think...

This was close to 3 months

Then at this point it didnt change much more....this was after about 3 and a half months ---Rock On!

"Thats what HE said....."

My brother JB (twitter.com/JMar_Sr), my buddy GiGi (twitter.com/endless_misses) on the cameraphone, and yours truly chillin' out randomly playin WWE Smackdown Vs. Raw 2009 on the Wii on a boring night in my room this is kinda old tho but i just got it to upload....anyway Enjoy!

Internal Anarchy Vol. I

. ... .. . . . .. .Another sleepless night... .. . ...

my body aches..

it shakes..

it quakes..

mind racing

heart trembling

im weak........

...........Or Am I?.........

feelings of confusion

disillusioned

is it passion or hate, that sits behind the gate of my teeth on my tongue?

disdain for what i have become?

insanity creeping up yet another rung?

ill look you in the eye

smile...

silent screams intense....

lay my head to rest

and the silent screams commence

they run deep in my veins now

i can almost taste them

........embrace them.....

some sat that i'm in "pain"...

"They" say i lack a glow----

but....who said this pain was bad?

im Stronger than you'll ever know........

Let me get this out the way also....

so i was looking thru my phone and i came across a 'Profile' of myself that i sent to someone sometime across the year....i figured id share it since its still pretty accurate...

Hello How are you doing?..My name is Ammad and this is the first time that I've ever responded to anyones post...I read thru it a couple times and had a smile come to my face so I figured why not give it a try...I'm 22, african american somewhere between 6'3 and 6'4 I'm a big guy with a voice like Barry White (so I'm told), the solid football player type at around 285 but I'm still working at that...I stay pretty well groomed...hygiene a must...I'm a funloving type that loves to laugh and knows when to be silly to calm tense moments...but I also know when the businessman and professional needs to be in the forefront...I'm a Psychology Major and Criminal Justice Minor...I'm going back to finish up school in the fall...I had to take a little time off to cure some financial woes...but I work full time now so things have gotten better with prayer...I'm a church goer but not the type to throw religion in anyones face...I realize we make mistakes...and it takes time for us all to establish our own personal connection with God in order to remedy our fallacies...on the complete flipside of that...I do like to party, I drink and kick it when I get the time to...but I'm not the type to go to a club or a bar and spend a ton of money...its a recession...lol...but I do like to have a good time...I feel you completely on meeting new people...that's pretty much where I am right now in my life...if something happens...I'm willing to accept that...but I'm not looking to push for sex or 'Love' right now...if you have anything you wanna ask be my guest...if you want to see pictures that's cool too ill either send them to you or ill link you to my facebook page....hope to hear from you soon....take care and goodnight
:..:The Royal Blu Rockstar:..:

Sounds good dont it ;-) lol Rock on

The Rockstar Princess

This is my little princess Akyria....love her to death