Long Way Down..... (Pt. II)

June----the year half over but the hits just came on coming around this time...after the fire and the fact that i had to leave my new place....a couple weeks later i was on the southside of Chicago on my way to a party---and right around 95th...my car engine locks up as im driving and i can do nothing about it at all but pray i can come to a safe stop.....later on i found that it would cost more to repair than i was willing to shell out---not only did i lose my car my the loss of my car caused me to lose both jobs i had at the time

July, August, September-- The summer was the most depressing summer after the happenings in June---all i remember was randomly drinking....and sitting in the house....not really wanting to eat nor get out the bed---i dislocated my kneecap this past summer too and just didnt care--- all this time ran together...i went back to class and didnt really care about that either...it was quite the struggle to find the will to do anything anymore...i just kept to myself while some of my friendships deteriorated...

October--- my 23rd birthday-- those that are close to me refused to let me stay inside with my lackluster dream deferred attitude... that was about all that happened for my 'Jordan' birthday-- let hope 24 rocks

November, December-- the holidays rolled around-- still struggling to find a job... and stressed about Christmas... stressed about how to improve.. but someone infected my life to convince me that things aren't all bad... and that its okay to let my guard down... and i trusted her enough to do just that... its one of few decisions that felt right and made me happy... a good way to end the year with some of my strength returning after such a dismal year... i look forward to what the future has in store for US... battered and broken but still not yet defeated... I keep ticking and coming back--- Rock On!

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CHAMPION!

Rockstars won the Tough Dogs League Championship by a score of 85 to 97 over Mad Dogs. Cardinals led the team in scoring in the championship round and Peyton Manning led the team in scoring for the season. Congrats once again to Rockstars on a terrific Fantasy Football Season.

YEAAAAAAHHHH!!! you kno what it is!!! Fantasy Football is fun...this was my first year---and then what?! FIRST YEAR CHAMPION!

Long Way Down..... (Pt. I)

2009-----Mercifully is coming to an end....its been the filled to the brim with spiritual and mental ups and downs.....heartbreak, heartache, disdain, remorse, regret, so many things that i could have done without...so many moments that ended is anger, confusion, and "Why Me?"'s....many nights spent in anxiety.... mind racing, pacing, unsure of what to do next....insomnia became my best friend.....

January---it was me against the world...and i was okay with that....i made no other resolution other than this year was about SELF.....putting myself number ONE....something i had never done

February--things were well....Valentines Day came and went...Aquarius and Pisces Birthdays were plentiful and partying stayed on deck....my eyes weren't on anyone and my time and money stayed intact....

March--ran into a bit of an emotional hangnail...i thought something was when it really wasn't...i fooled myself and called it quits on 'Love' and 'Relationships'...nothing good seemed to be coming my way anyway...clingy overbearing women and fuckery stayed afoot but i maintained in that realm...by stepping away from it...

April-- DAMN! i thought things were rollin....workin 2 1/2 jobs :-)....money was good...i stayed out and about...complete social whore...club promoting a little bit and kept it all in motion---just got work done on my car...everything was paid up and i was on my way to moving out my house and hopefully on my way to this long term fruitful relationship-------with freedom

May-- shit.....started...to change in a hurry........proud to 6 months untainted at this point....but thats where the good news came to a halt...the apartment that i finally found to move into in late May....burned down courtesy of one of 'Left Eye's apprentices....apparently her booskie Bubba Lubba wasnt actin' right and she decided to torch his shit in the bathtub....i smelled bacon...but there was definitely no pork to be found...looked out the window to catch a glimpse of the flickering lights and the flames racing out the first floor window.........

(Pt. 2 Coming Soon.......)

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PWNED BY CIRCUMSTANCE!.............oh well...

so my day was an odd one----and to show this i decided to do something a little different and post a video about it as opposed to just text....this is my first time actually trying something like this so the Audio quality is a little sketchy...but ill work out the kinks as i move forward....

OH! and Shoutout to my brother JB (twitter.com/JMar_Sr) for puttin' me up on this Cee-Lo song "Under Tha Influence (Follow Me)" Rock on!

. .. ..hold on my Battery is about to DI----------sonuvabitch.......

FIRST OFF......let me start by saying that RIM BlackBerry is the *GREATEST*....i love my Curve to death outside of occasional trackball issues and this battery issue that i am about to explain momentarily....now anyone that has talked to me in the last 4-6 weeks knows that ive been having battery issues....that being my battery was "swollen" and wouldn't hold a charge standing alone for more than about 15-20 minutes...sucks right?...so i ordered a battery off eBay for about $5 (w/shipping), T-Mobile wanted about 44-ish.....bitches....but the problem with that is that the battery just got here YESTERDAY....i ordered it on the 5th of November...so yea ive been suffering.....let me get to some pictures to show how severe and agitating this situation was...

(above view) the battery on the left is the fresh new one that i got in the mail

(side view) this one tells much more of the story...once again the battery on the left is the new Curve battery and the one on the right is the old one...do you SEE how enlarged it is?!....it swole to about 2 times its normal size and didn't fit in the phone correctly anymore (pics/video to come).....my phone definitely looked and felt pregnant....i'm not sure how common this issue is but it is truly, truly a hassle to any unsuspecting Blackberry owner

P.S.---i dunno WHAT the hell that is at the bottom of the second picture.............anyway--- Rock On!